learned.

praises! i'm walking.
things i learned while on crutches:

1. we're capable of so much more.
2. helping those in need gives us purpose and peace.
3. sitting is overrated.
4. "can't" finds new life with a "how can i?"
5. with plenty of time to surf the net, i've found the 'missed connections' section of craigslist:

Dear Ex-bf - w4m - 29 (brooklyn)
I saw you places a couple of times lately and then last night I dreamt we were friends. It was lovely but still very hard.

and

You Were Crying On Madison Ave - m4w - 29 (Flatiron)
You were in a colorful dress on the corner waiting to cross, and crying pretty intensely. I asked if you were alright and needed anything, and I couldn't make out what you said had happened. I would have offered you my umbrella from the rain, if I had one to offer. I hope you're alright and whatever happened passes. Bad things happen to all of us, it's what we take away from it and do afterwards that matters. Good luck to you.

when

three weeks ago, my right leg slipped into a gap between the platform and the train at Times Square 42nd street in NYC.
it happened so quickly, and i was halfway on the train, so i pulled my leg out, onto the train, and the doors closed. 


the average new yorker is has stared at this sign on the subway on a consistent basis:

...and the average new yorker knows that people don't step in the gap.

i mean, why would they do that?

well, that shit happens.

went to the emergency room, was admitted to the hospital, been on crutches for 3 weeks.

whole nine.

waiting my spot in the emergency purgatory room of doom



fall risk indeed.

   
it's been almost 3 weeks, and everyone keeps asking when i'll be better.

'when will you be off the crutches?'

'when will you walk again?'

'when will you be miraculously healed and the 7-inch hemotoma melt away into oblivion?'

i don't know.

i mean, when do we ever know when?

if we knew when, we'd spend much more time with loved ones before they exit.

we'd freshen our breath before we bumped into the love of our life.

we'd walk very slowly over a gap and through a subway door.

but if we always know when, what's the point of living?

guess we're constantly being prepared for whenever when happens.

i'm beginning to find peace with it, though ya'll ruin it every time you ask.

so stop asking.

because i don't know.